It has been a while since I have written anything. I don’t really know where to begin, but I will let it flow.
It took me a lot to become the person I am today. I went through many negative situations to be who I am right now. This is definitely not the final version of me as I am always becoming. Many people praise my calmness and peacefulness but have never encountered the wars I fought within and outside myself
There is no doubt that I am self motivated. I have never felt the need to be supported verbally by people around me to be able to do what I do. But it was nice getting those motivational words. They felt like fuel somehow. I cannot deny that I do enjoy it every now and then.
Reading and seeking knowledge can put you in tough situations. With time you will realize that you are on your own. You might think that bits of information here and there won’t make a difference, the more you know the more you are aware. The state of your awareness could change the way you see things and other people. Let’s put it this way: imagine by getting new information today will allow you to take one step higher….. Imagine you’re getting information every single day, how many steps are you taking by the end of the week?
What I am more focused on is that how the people around you respond. As for me this is something really important and if it couldn’t be handled well you could fall off…. The time you decide to evolve and grow is the time where a lot of the people around you will fight you. Whether they will make fun of you or find it real weird and awkward and they will point it out… . You will also feel that your circle is getting smaller and smaller; you might end up on your own.
One of the things that happens when you raise your awareness is that your values will change, your views on many things within you and around you will change, your opinions about various things in life will also change. You cannot control that, it will happen through the journey of seeking higher consciousness. You will end up not being able to accept a lot of things like: shallow conversations, wasting time on people who aren’t appreciative, people who talk about other people
Personal experience: The more I got in depth to seek higher awareness the less fun it was to be around other people who aren’t at the same level as I am.( This is not by any means mean than I am getting smarter or that people are stupid… It’s more about you’re in the deep ocean and they’re hanging around at the shore.) I find intellectual conversations more joyful and amusing. I end up a lot of times being alone because somehow I feel misunderstood by those around me. They won’t understand me and I cannot stand being in middle of conversations that won’t help me evolve. I believe that they are a waste of time and energy and I cannot afford to waste both.
In the journey for seeking higher awareness there is no doubt that you will end up alone a lot of the times but that shouldn’t be a reason for you to settle down and hang out with people who will only drain you out… It is not healthy for your mental and emotional state of mind.
I do believe that there is someone for everyone. The more you have integrity with your beliefs and ideas you will eventually find people who will match yours. You cannot live a life pretending to be someone you’re not; it will always feel like you are living a double life; as this will only exhaust you.
I have read a line before and it kind of changed my whole perspective on my life…. I hope it kind of triggers you as well. I honestly cannot remember it literally but it went something like that….. (If I lost everyone and found myself; I won)
Here are some quotes to inspire you as well:
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it.” Albert Einstein
“Remember that your perception of the world is a reflection of your state of consciousness.” Eckhart Tolle
“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” Rumi